Well...first bummer...

So, this weekend was a BUSY weekend.

Friday, I worked a 12-hour shift and came home to a messy apartment (big surprise). That night, my wonderful boyfriend and primary cheerleader, Haroon, came down to see me. He came early (yay!) for a fun-filled family event-filled weekend (lucky him!). I weighed myself out of curiousity and was down over 2 pounds. Yay, me!

Saturday, we had a birthday party for my now 4-year-old nephew, Nathan. First of all...where have the years gone? He's so grown up now! I decided that I could eat the food they served there and not go too horribly off plan. I did very well, if I say so myself. One piece of bbq pork (excess sauce scraped off), and some baked beans. But, to celebrate both his bday and my success so far, I decided that I could afford a small piece of cake. So, I had a small corner piece (extra icing that way! Ssh!). I was very happy with my choices, and my JCC, Barb, told me I did well when I saw her today.

Then, Sunday, we got up early to head to church for my new niece's baptism. I think this is when things took a turn. I knew where we would be going for lunch ahead of time, and spoke with Barb for ideas. She suggested a wonderfully delicious spinach salad with strawberries, grapes, walnuts and goat cheese. It was sooooo good, I can still taste it (and want to again!). I did have one small square of pizza, just to taste, and it really didn't taste that great-nothing compared to my salad anyway!

But, last night, and I have no idea why...maybe because I was tired? I just could not get myself to make the right decision and eat my JC food. After trying to quench whatever craving I was having with all JC-approved foods (except what was on my menu-bad girl!), I still wasn't satisfied. So, I gave in and ate junk. Pizza rolls.

Ugh...I felt horrible afterwards. Both physically and emotionally. I was discouraged, guilty and pissed with myself.

But..."it's progress, not perfection!" I had one slip up in over 30 days of following my plan. Why should I feel guilty?

Today's weigh-in exacerbated the guilt. I did not lose, but I gained 0.2 pounds (which, I'm sure is some water-retention, due to Friday night's weigh-in). Overall, I can't be upset with myself for that....every attempt at weight loss has its ups and downs. And, for an up, 0.2 is just not that bad.

However, I did have some trouble getting back on plan again today. I don't know why, I just did. So, I'm making myself a promise...tomorrow is a new day, and it will be a JC day.

Speechless...

...I think I'm still in shock. I lost 2.6 pounds this week. I can't even tell you how surprising that was for me!

I mean, let's recap:

31 years old, and fat the entire time. On and off of diet after diet...only to fail miserably (though, now I know it's because I had not yet addressed the emotional eating I was doing...hello, self-sabotage!). And, now...not only am I hardly ever hungry between meals, but I'm losing weight! And, I still can't really exercise, so...again...speechless!

My JCC told me she was the same way. She has already lost over 70 pounds on JC and is 40 more away from goal. She told me today that she remembers feeling the EXACT same way when she started. The "omg, this is really happening for me. this is WORKING for me" feelings are apparently very normal. And, I'll tell you why: it doesen't FEEL like a diet. I mean, in the past week I had Pizza Hut (couldn't even FINISH a 1/2 personal pan...talk about heavy!), Ruby Tuesday's (jumbo lump crab cake=OMG!), and Triple Chocolate Cheesecake (that was last night. Earlier in the week, I had Cookies-n-Cream Cheesecake! HELLOOOOO!)

If anyone reading this is just thinking about calling Jenny Craig, I encourage you to do so...it's an amazing feeling to see that scale go down EVERY week and not feel like you're missing out!

OMG! This is REALLY happening!

So, I'm a little late. I usually post on my weigh-in days, but I just couldn't get my mind to slow down well enough to write that night.

This week, I had my first "milestone" appointment with Jenny Craig (JC) and my consultant (JCC). Again...OMG! I have lost 9.8 pounds and 3 inches total! I still can't really believe it.

I mean, really....who would have thought that simply EATING food that tastes GOOD could result in losses like this? I mean, I still haven't been able to work out, so I really just was NOT expecting to see any loss of inches....but, THREE??? That's freakin' amazing!

I also started some paperclip chains...one boring silver one of 100 paperclips, and one of colorful fun-shaped paperclips. Hee hee, it started out only because my paperclip dispensers were too full, but I am loving having something to look at and see my progress! Granted, the 100 paperclips still look like an awful lot, but I love seeing that colorful chain grow!

Can you imagine what it's like to lose 10 of these:



No wonder there was some inches lost! That yellow blob is supposedly what ONE POUND of fat looks like. EW!

It just keeps coming off!

So, this week, I didn't do very good with getting my activity in...mostly because I was just so damned lazy!

But, I did drop another 1+ pounds, bringing my total for three weeks on the JC program to 7.5 pounds lost! That's pretty damned cool, if you ask me.

This afternoon, after I got back and put away all my food, I did get on the bike for 10 minutes. I went very slowly, being careful to not let those pedals shift position on me and hurt the ankles, but...it was 10 minutes activity more than I've had lately! We'll see how I do the rest of this week....